bigducky

I will never be an illustrator or a character designer. Ugh.

I bought a Cintiq and IT STILL ISN'T HERE YET. Stupid wildfires delaying Fedex. It's ONLY 2 HOURS away at this point but it won't be here until Thursday because of our poopy national holiday and WE CAN'T EVEN HAVE FIREWORKS BECAUSE COLORADO IS POOPY. Ugh. I have so many things I want to draw but I am too lazy to do it with a regular tablet. Or paper. IT CAN ONLY BE A GLORIOUS CINTIQ. So hopefully this has motivated me to finally do some art. Also I started a sculpture of Freya and then remembered why I never get around to sculpting. It's freaking hard. God dammit why didn't I try to be a doctor or something? Nooooo it HAD to be art, didn'

I keep saying this over and over again but then I don't. I feel broken. What should I draw? I don't know. I miss school. Sometimes I feel like a fake artist because I never know what to draw unless someone tells me. I still feel validated in the fact that I am working in a lot of other creative ways though. My job requires some mad storytelling, improv, and acting skills, which will probably be useful if I ever end up working in a story department or writing my own stuff (wishful thinking) and I dance 3-4 times a week these days. But still, I should draw. I am gonna get back to school and everyone will have been doing awesome things all summe